I’m an improved version of myself, for me, and others. Perhaps that seems like an arrogant and subjective claim to make about myself. But as I am making it solely as a reminder for me, as a point in time reflection, so be it.
How do I know I have changed for the better?
I know because today we have the good fortune to be moving to our camper for some weeks this summer. Normally, I’d have insisted we all agree on a rather early time to be on the road, fully packed and out the door. Instead, today I got up and read the final fifty pages of my book*, spent twenty minutes on my yoga mat, and have been packing up the final things less urgently. The me of a few years ago would never had allowed this.
While it may all sound rather Zen, the path to here has had lots of resistance and urgency inserted along the way. It seems to take me trying ALL the different approaches to learn what feels good and what doesn’t.
Whatever patience or calm I am bringing at the moment could evaporate in a flash. But for now, writing a short blog post in the middle of packing up, while others move around me seems, like an incredible victory on my growth path!
*The book was Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin. Really good!