Today I had a kick ass workout. I felt strong. Happy. Accomplished. Grateful. Lucky.
Then I got home and instantly felt angry. Something triggered me and I went from a cool cloud nine to a warm anger. It wasn’t a raging feeling at all. It was more like a “This is not ok” sensation.
I took a shower. The “This is not ok” stayed with me in a loop, even though I tried to broaden my perspective. In years past, I would have kept this loop going and expended way too much energy. I would have thought of all the reasons it was my fault and all the possible ways to address it.
This time, rightly or wrongly, I communicated my “This is not ok” right after my shower. I wouldn’t be able to do this if I didn’t trust myself more than I used to. I wouldn’t be able to do this in some of my relationships. But I could do it in this case, and know that even if I am angry, I will still be loved. And that is a big deal.
